BOY upset to BOY happy

on my way home, i was very upset... about my past grades in my subjects....about the quiz we had... :(

but this emotion :( disappeared because i saw this pretty young lady..

from upset mood to HAPPY mood... i rarely see this girl kc nga mahinhin maxado...
she is my neighbor and im glad for that :) We bumped each other in the tricycle and that was the moment i recognize her face.... once a girl and now a pretty lady.

I want to be close with this lady... and so i searched for her FS account...LUCKY I AM... i found it...
and now im waiting for her approval... and then.... the BOY will make his move.. :)

nice but sad day..mixed emotions :( :)

Embarrassed!!!!!!!!

im feelin' tired and down ryt now....
3weeks in school this semester seems one hell of a struggle for me...
got low grades in DSALGO, failed my 1st quiz in Database...
and this time my MATH (stat) subject XD

The 1st tym i ddn't pass my test paper 'coz im ashame of my answers... and i dnt think it was an answer at all... I sat there for exactly 1hour and 20 minutes doing trial and error thingy coz i dnt know anything about wat im i doing at that time... My teacher is the head of the F*ckin MATH div. who lectures like FLASH GORDON... She talks very fast... very very fast.... I admit that i was sleeping while she was lecturing on our 1st meeting... but it was not intentional to sleep in her class... im just so tired of the schedule especially during tues. and thurs. Maybe I am still coping up with my schedule or this is just my adjusting period for this semester.... I HOPE SO...

That quiz we had.... was so hard for me.... to be honest.... all i had in my paper were useless nonsense solving... i dnt even think it has a connection between the problem itself... :(

Im upset....of myself...of everything... i just don't know wat to do now.......

GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just a Dream!!

i had unusual dream this pass few nights... in my dream, i have the ability to fly.
i remember askin' myself, in my dream, is this real or what? i had few dreams back then, about me flying, soaring the skies but this dream i had lately is unusual. Back then, i can't control my ability to fly, i always ended up falling back to ground while im trying to use it. Back then, i can only fly for just a short period of time. But this dream i had, i can "partially control it".

I can recall some part of my dream, i remember i was flying to certain place where my crush lived in. But that person i like in my dream is a person i do not know, i can't even recognize her face, i can't even remember her face now. i remember i was trying to fly up high but having a hard time doing it. Some1 told me in my dream that when i fly, she thinks im not comfortable with it, she told me my posture is bad while im flying. and the unusual thing was, i was with my friends and then i was trying to show them that i have the ability to fly, but i ddnt even float even for just an inch away from the ground. i wonder y...

i had a few dreams about flying... but this dream is so unusual for me.... i just don't know y....
it seems i have the power but i can't control it completely.. i wonder y...

dats it for now...

The Breeze of "BER"

It is now SeptemBER and a couple of days to go, it will be the month of OctoBER.

The beginning of "BER" month means Christmas season is getting closer and end of the year is near (a New year is about to be seen). For the people like me, who are college students, 2 things will come up in our mind. 1st (GOOD NEWS) semestral break is just about weeks to go and 2nd (BAD NEWS) finals is approaching very(times infinity) fast.. works and tasks will fill our desks AGAIN!!!.

Personal experience:
I always feel cold when the night breeze blows and touch my skin when it is the month of "BER".
The night sky usually looks very clear and many stars can be seen up above and the moon light shines so bright at night.
I can see the "Tres Marias" just by looking up (without having difficulties findin' it).
Staring and glancing the stars are so amazing to do at night during this time of the year.
The moon acts like the sun at night during this months 'coz it shines so bright that even the blind can see the light.

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The night shines bright
while i am here, all alone, looking for the light.
Wind blows in my ears
and left me shivering in tears.
I wish u were here with me tonight
so that i can hug u so tight.

mysteries of my past

how long it has been? 2 years?

been 2 years and yet ur still on my mind..
our memories are still here.. your gifts are still with me..
kept in a special place in my left part of my chest.. i wud never throw it away

im still puzzled by ur actions that time... all of the gifts uv given to me... were all mysteries of the past.. especially dat "bracelet " of urs... u sed it is special to you.. u sed that it was given by ur mom.. and y dd u gave it to me?
on the letter, u sed it was a present for me... an appreciation.. for friendship?! u haven't explain anything about it...
u have given me a puzzle to solve and its been 2 yrs i haven't solved it... im not rily good at solving puzzles... hope i can solve dis b4 its too late for us.

i wish i cud tell you..
i wish i cud change the way things that have been...
i miss you.. and i rily rily wanna see you...
when? i don't know...
u are busy and i am busy.. hope one day i cud ask you out...even just once....
a time for us... that wud be great... someday.... someday....

TiRiNg LaYf!!!

i've been busy for awhile, dats y i ddnt make any post lately...

well, i am done with my CS exam, Math exam, and P6 exam.. Hopin' dat i pass all of them especially my Math exam... 'coz i got 68% average in my prelim grade... [OMFG] i was absent for 3 straight meetings in math... SADLY all those 3 meetings, they had a quiz on each day i'v missed... and i rily forgot to tell my teacher to have a special quiz to cope up with the grades that i'v missed..
past is past, i can nvr change it... ijust hope that my midterm grades are not going to be that bad >.<

So wats new to me now? well, i lose 100bucks in a basketball game... we had an argument with my father... yeah it happens all the time... ALMOST!!! well, my dad is so so.... grrrr!!! ... He is a person who only see the mistake of the people around him... if u were me,, i think u cud hve killed him already... >.<
when having an argument wid him,, i always tell "PLS LORD, DON'T GIVE ME A REASON TO PUNCH THIS GUY"... yah2x, sum of u hu will read this myt think im BAD... but if u were me... you will do the same thing or maybe even worst, TRUST ME!!!

so much for that, i think im going to sleep now.. coz it is now 1:38am here at Phil and my class will be on 9am in this morning. i have to gain some energy coz it is my physics subject <3hrs>.. im praying that i wud hve a nice day today.... ...

goodnayt every1 --.

2nd blog journal entry

Last night, I was studying theo 'till dawn [4am]. I woke up around 6am, short resting time for me. Reason why i stayed up so late and wake up so early?? ->Theo exam and my 1st subject this day [JAVA] @9am in the morning. My knees have no energy, it was like they were shakin' while im trying to walk fast to catch up on my COM LAB subject.

@the COM LAB, our sir gave us another programming exercises despite the fact that most of us were still stressed out on our last programming exercises. [yeah2] i know wat u thinkin'.. Sir Bulao has no mercy on us... T.T ... What happen back there was.. I DIDNT MAKE THE EXERCISES!!! haha.. Im still tired... i was hoping actually he [sir Bulao] wud give us a break and let us study for the coverage that we wud take this coming wednesday afternoon [tomorrow actually]. BUT i was wrong... well,, the 3hrs subject... ended up most of us didnt even bother to work with the execise.. except for those people who really want to do it.. hehe.. i understand them..

We took our lunch at the local fast food store near the University with friends...i ordered and ate 2 pancit canton, got full and went back to school for our next subject [java lect].

anoder bulao moments again.. fortunately he ddnt gave us another new topic... he just told us somethings about our recent prog. assgn. and cut the class early than usual. "thank GOD"

after that,, we were studying for the theo exam..almost 3hrs of break before having the exam. I was prett xure that i can pass the exam if we will have it today [TUE]. i'v studied it last night 'til dawn, so y cant i be so confident. i have the reason to be confident enuf ahahha.. BUT theo exam was canceled. Our teacher canceled it for some reason...i don't know wat to think, whether it was a GOOD or BAD news for me......... well, i dnt think that my work last night was wasted, theo exam was rescheduled to thursday, so ders no nid to study hard on wednesday night.

ryt now, im stdying java, preparing for the exam tomorrow. coverage chapter 1 to 7, im still at chapter 1 hahahah [ gudluck for me]. hope i can finish dis before 4am... or less.. coz il have to finish my math grup assgn too and make my speech in my english exam... im so tired already... hope that my work will make some good effects on the future [grade reports].

dats it for today.. =)

1st blog journal entry

I woke up this morning, around 7am, from a bad dream[ yeah I really mean it ], was about one of my MAJOR subjects has a failing mark. It scared me so much that the time i realized i was awake i really really really thank GOD for that was only a dream. I slept around 3am, i was working on my physics exercise, though i finished early, my eyes won't let me sleep [ i guess SUM1 was thinking of me that time] hahaha IWISH!!! Well, I prepared my things for school, taken a bath after that , got no time to eat my breakfast 'coz my 1st subject was around 9pm [ physics ]. When i arrived at school, that was the only time i know that we will be having a test or quiz in our physics subject. That didn't scared me off, I knew i can solve the problems on that quiz, i worked out my physics exercise for almost 2 days [saturday&sunday], so i have the confidence [hahaha]. When the quiz started, i felt so lucky 'coz the given circuit problems were almost the same with the problems i worked for the last 2days. it was so funny, 'coz i was stucked in no.2 'coz one process of the problem was that you will raise ur answer to -1, i didn't know how to raise to -1 using my calculator [hahaha]. Luckily, one of my friends lend me his calculator and that was almost the same calculator i usually used [BTW that calculator was LOST long time ago] hahahhaa... i finished the quiz with a big smile on my face [hahahaha].

then we eat lunch, majority of my friends wants to eat in a buffet type but cheap restaurant hahaha [sosyal restaurant] we chose PENONGs hahaha.... RICE all you can.. I eat a lot there and so my friends too...after we eat, we went to school again for our nxt subject [MGT], we had a reporting at that subject and as usual im not listening in to it hahhaa. Nxt stop was our math subject, no lecture [yehey] but exams will be on friday [huhu]. after that subject i went home immediately.

DAMN!!!!! 'coz of dat heavy rain, i was forced to ride a taxi [which i don't usually do]. I was only forced to do so 'coz of my laptop. 70+ pesos ride is cheap compare to the worth price of my laptop. I guess i made the good decision back there. only in saving my laptop... but in saving my allowance, i failed [tsk2]

ryt now, im studying for the exam tomorrow. im planning to keep studying until around 4am. my 1st class tom is 9am hahaa... atleast 3-4hrs sleeping time... ahahaha...

gudluck for me.... -my 1st journal-